thoughts out loud...

so it's 3:30 a.m. and i'm up...i was going through old files on my computer, trying to clean stuff up, and came across this. i don't remember exactly when i originally wrote it...probably in the past year or so...anyway, i worked out a couple of spots and thought, what the hell, i'll post it. so, there ya go...

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'thoughts exhausted'

i'm tired of waiting
i was tired long ago
the wind blows, a flag flaps
leaves tumble across the bricks
until finding a resting place against
a wall or in a corner
glass shatters
lives shatter
hearts shatter
no need to speak
it's all there for the world to see
metal and flesh
the colors that collide
words collide
creating distance between us

i'm tired of waiting
plug it in make it work
but there's no charge
brain dead
chemical shift
shifting gears to try and
make things better
but it has no pulse
and the screaming flat-line rings
rings and screams above the noise
for all to hear
to feel
but feel no more

i'm tired of waiting
the silence bears down
like weights on our shoulders
can we forge on
is there strength there
to bridge the gap
between us
between lives
between time
time will carry on
with or without us
new becomes old and
old becomes older
but never quite goes away
it is the only constant
in an inconsistent world
a constant reminder
of the past
of things passed
but it still remains
i'm tired of waiting

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