i don't sleep, i dream...

what the hell is wrong with me? it's well after 2a.m. and i cannot sleep for the life of me! argh. this is getting old.

my brain works better at night, but the rest of me doesn't function very well...what i mean is, i can do all the artsy fartsy stuff i do better at night, but i'm incapable of actually being useful during these hours.

i used to be a newspaper courier, and i thought it was the best job ever. i worked tuesday through saturday, from midnight till whenever i got done with all five of my routes, which was usually around 5 or so in the morning. i figured, hey, i'm a night person, and i love to drive, so surely this is the job for me. and it was, for a good while...i loved it...the freedom is offered was great, and the pay wasn't shabby either. then i fell asleep driving one night...well, actually it had happened before, but this time was different...i slammed into a curb (and luckily only a curb) and busted my car up real good. and that was that.

for a second there i forgot what my point was...

anyway...yeah, so here i am, up in the wee hours of the morning, and what am i doing? typing this crap! i did just finish a large painting that i'm quite happy with, but i guess my brain decided that wasn't enough to get it to shut down for the night. it's as though my mind has something it's trying to figure out, or something it wants to say or tell me...i'm not sure...regardless, the noise won't stop just because i turn out the lights.

so i guess i am off to take something so i can at least fit in a few hours of sleep. i keep hoping exhaustion will catch up with me, but it never seems to find its way.

hope everyone else is sleeping great and having wonderful dreams. night!

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