imagine me & you...

or better yet, don't.
watched 'gray matters' tonight. really good movie, and very honest in the emotional sense.

argh.

the downside is, i'm in a mood now.

word of advice:
never watch a movie that will make you lonely when you're already alone.

so...what now?
i guess bed. conflict sucks.

night all.
=e

anyway...

rob left at 5a.m. this morning to catch a flight to indiana. he's gone til next tuesday.
this means that i have the entire apartment to myself for five full days, well, aside from having to share it with the kitties. this also means that i have to find some way of entertaining myself for the next five days.
normally i don't mind a bit of alone time to get stuff done and relax, but with meetings today and tomorrow, and then school starting next monday along with work, i'm a bit stressed, and feeling a bit lonely.
anyway, i've got get started on my day. catch y'all later.

xox,
=e

every monkey has a butt...

the past two weeks have probably been the most stressful time of the entire summer for me. week before last i was dealing with summer semester finals and presentations, then last week was 'job search marathon 2007', and while the stress of actually finding a job was quickly taken care of, i then had the stress of paperwork and training sessions to deal with.

so, with all the craziness that's been going on this past weekend was mostly about me trying to get some good, uninterrupted sleep and taking my mind off everything i'm going to be responsible for this upcoming semester. thoughts and worries seem to pop up out of nowhere, like how i'm going to be responsible for 17 little kids at my new job; how i'm going to be taking a full load this semester and wondering if i'm actually going to be able to keep up with everything. so with all of that, sleep has been something that's eluded me for awhile now. with so much going on it can sometimes be very difficult for me to get my brain to shut off at the same time my body wants to, so it was nice to finally have a few days where i didn't have to worry about setting my alarm.

so, friday night rob and i took advantage of tax-free weekend and jaunted down to wal-mart for a bit of late night shopping. i got some great deals on some nice shirts, and we picked up a few things for the house. saturday we really didn't do much of anything for a good portion of the day. we did go out driving around to look at houses late that afternoon. then yesterday i drove to my mom's to hang out with her and, again, go shopping while the deals were hot. all in all it was a good weekend, though i am still pretty exhausted. luckily, i have the next few days to relax and get some things around the house done before the madness starts back up again.

well, it's lunch time and i'm starving, so i'm off to get some food! hope everyone has a great week. later!

=e

sometimes it's just better to let the wookie win...

...and i'm that wookie!

anyway.

i got a lot accomplished today and i'm very proud of myself. i got my resume all finalized and stuff, did some online job searching, emailed and faxed a few leads, and got an interview for tomorrow. all in all it was a productive day. my goal is to have something nailed down by the end of the week, but i'm not going to push too hard on that. i want things to come when they come, and not force anything. i don't want any unneccesary stress on top of things right now.

today was one of those days that i definitely felt my age, or older. when i get in the mood of getting things done and being responsible i tend to carry myself and act a lot different from my normal day to day shuffle. i tend to act older most of the time regardless of what i'm doing or who i'm with, however i guess you could say i become more professional when taking on tasks i feel are important. it's kind of funny because i walk completely different and when i talk with someone i'm very outspoken and use my 'retail voice'.

well rob brought home PGR3, so i need to go get my race on for a bit. i have a long day tomorrow methinks, but i can't pass up the opportunity to leave rob in the dust a bit ;)

night all.

xox
=e

freedom is exhilirating...

it's saturday afternoon, and i've been up since 8a.m.
i was supposed to go to a defensive driving course today with reardon, but alas, that fell through...again. that's okay though, not harm no foul. i just need to get it done this week, so i'll probably go ahead and do it online.
so instead of that, i went out and bought donuts and croissants for breakfast for rob and me. it was nice to be up early and out of the apartment by myself for a few. and, although it was already over 90 degrees outside, it was an absolutely beautiful morning. however, there was an unusual amount of cops out patrolling this morning as well. i think my last count was ten, but i could be off by one or two. it was a bit ridiculous.
aside from all that, i think the rest of today will be somewhat productive but not too ambitious. i need to work on my resume some, as well as do some chores around the house, but nothing too iminent. i'm already doing the dishes, so i may just clean my bathroom and call it a day.
ah yes, also this morning i got rob to be adventurous. he is now sporting purple tinted hair, and it's adorable. he was all for it, which amazed me, but i wasn't about to pass up the opportunity for him to be silly. you can't really tell it's purple unless you see it in the right light, but it's cool all the same. i'll try and get pictures soon, especially since it's just temporary dye that will probably come out by the end of next week. simple fun is still fun, and that's all that matters really. :D
okie dokie, well i'm off. rob just hooked up his newest toy, the xbox 360, so i need to go school him in some PGR2 lovin'.
have a great weekend all. til next time...

much love,
=e

looooong week at its end...

got a 97 on my paper and presentation...i fucking rule. awwww yeah.
our final was today, and i don't think i did real great on that, but i should pass the class all the same, and in reality that's all that matters.

now i get two full weeks off plus a couple days with which to recoop, relax, and, the not so fun part, find a job. that shouldn't be too hard. i always find something when i'm in need of it, it's just finding something that will work well for me. the schedule i have for the fall allows for me to find something that i can work days, and hopefully not have to work weekends. i purposefully am taking all night and online courses for that exact reason, so hopefully it will work out that way.
originally i romanced the idea of going back to work at the college photo lab, but then i realized that that might not be the best of places for me to work anymore. i need to start venturing out and pushing myself out of my comfort zone more. plus, they pay shit.

anyway. i'm exhausted after a week long anxiety attack, so i think i may go take a nap with the kitties before heading to kickboxing class. later all.

xox,
=e

just like turkey...

it's 11p.m. and i'm done. my paper had to be a minimum of 5 pages; it's 12 full pages minus the title page, citation and reference pages; it's 20 if you add those in. so i'm done. i don't care if not all the footnoting is perfect, or if there's a misspelled word or two. i just don't care. i'm done.

with that being said, i should probably start on my powerpoint. i think it's due tomorrow too, but only if i have to give my presentation then. i'm thinking i'll hold off on giving it until tuesday. all the same, i should probably throw something together just in case.

there are times when completing something like this would give me that satisfactory feeling that i've done something worthwhile. this time it's just made me feel strung out. just four more days and then i get two weeks off. thank goodness.

okay, well powerpoint time it is. have a great week everyone.

xox,
=e

you know the nazi's had flare, they made the jews wear...

i hate politics. more so, i hate writing about politics. alas, that's all i've been doing for the past few days as i try to get through this damn paper for my government class. of course, once i'm done writing it, i get to then make a wonderful powerpoint presentation and speech outline so i can stand in front of all my little classmates and explain to them that homosexuals aren't evil and human rights mean for *all* humans, not just republicans. well, that's what it should be. what it will be is a waste of my breath for five minutes and an unnecessary anxiety attack.

can you feel my excitement?

anyway.

i will probably be up the rest of the night working on this shit, so i should get back to it i guess. coffee is fantastic. sleep would be even better though.
hope everyone's weekend is super-dee-duper.

much love,
=e

oh...wow...

i have no words to describe the following, but felt the need to share:

""The state law of Texas only recognizes a marriage between a man and a woman, and I support that," said Chris Stevens, chairman of the Galveston County Republican Party. "I don't necessarily think they should be put in prison for [homosexual acts], but I don't think it should be a state-sanctioned activity."

Stevens cited the example of the fall of ancient Rome, which he says acknowledged homosexuality as legitimate. Although there was not just one single reason for the fall of the Roman democracy, homosexual unions may have been a contributing factor, he said."

that's part of an article that you can read here:
http://media.www.dailytexanonline.com/media/storage/paper410/news/2004/06/04/TopStories/Some-Say.Gops.Gay.Marriage.Stance.Alienates.Supporters-684513.shtml

are people really this ignorant? really?!

okay, anyway. i have to get back to writing my paper, but came across that and was just astonished. i'll update later.

xox
=e

a lot of nothing important...

so, now it's august...and i'm not real sure where july went, but i think some of my motivation must have gone with it.

i'm still getting stuff done, and things are still good, just at a much slower pace. i dunno, lately i've just been very drained of energy which makes getting stuff done a bit more of a chore.

the pressures of needing to find a job are not helping i'm sure. i don't *have* to get a job technically, but i feel obliged to. i hate depending on someone for everything, and especially when it starts adding up over time. i've got three weeks before the fall semester starts, and only another week of summer II, so i have plenty of time to find something in reality. i just want to get it taken care of so i don't stress over it anymore.

white russians are so incredibly yummy-rific. mmmmm...fantastic. okay, well i'm going to work on my resume and then hit the bed methinks. have a great rest of the week everyone, and i'll try to as well!

much love,
=e