creamy center of happiness and joy...

so it's nearly 2a.m. and i'm still up. why? because i can be dammit! HA!

i did absolutely nothing today, and it felt fucking fantastic. ok, well i did work on a painting, and clean up the kitchen a bit, but that's really about it. oh, and played mario party 8 for wii with rob which he bought today. it's pretty sweet, but the computer characters still cheat like the bitches they are. oh well, so is life...or something.

got an interesting text today from a certain someone asking if i was eating sushi...odd. unfortunately i wasn't at the time. however, tomorrow night it's on! well, technically i guess that's tonight. but i can't really subscribe to that because i haven't been asleep yet, and it can't be today because i'm still running on yesterday since i haven't slept, so today is still tomorrow.
yeah, have fun figuring that one out.

the weather was bloody crazy this morning, and woke me up way too damn early in my opinion. meh...what chya gonna do.

on a completely odd and probably undeserving side note - happy belated birthday to my ex-fiance. he turned 25 a few days ago, and i always send shout outs to people even if i don't talk to them anymore.

moving on...i should probably head to bed so i can actually accomplish a few things tomorrow before i stuff my gut with raw fish goodness. nighty night all!

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a big sigh of relief...

man i'm glad that that's over.

today was the last day of maymester, and while it was a ton of fun, i have to say that i am so relieved by the fact that i do not have to go tomorrow, or for the next few weeks for that matter. yea!

anyway. we played our group games today, and it was the class concensus that my group's game was the coolest and best. go us! i should pass the class with an A, which will be good for my gpa and my morale. whew.

while i have the next few weeks off from school and work, they will probably still be busy. i have a lot of miscellaneous things that i've been putting off because of my hectic schedule, so now is the time for them to be tended to. however, i think the rest of this week will be filled with movie nights, sushi dinners, working on a couple of paintings, and lots of guitar hero II. i think i deserve that much.

and with that, i am off to watch bad t.v. and enjoy the rain. later!

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japanese clark kent has conquered the rolling log...

i'm sure he has. too bad he fell on the jump and hang.

went and saw 'hot fuzz' tonite. it was fucking sweet! definitely a recommended movie on my part. go see it!
in other news, i'm freaking tired, and it's after 1a.m., so i'm going to bed. night motherf*ckers :D

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wiped...

it's 2a.m. and i just got done doing shit for a damn group project in my maymester humanities class. it's due tomorrow, otherwise i wouldn't be up still. luckily this chick in my group, that i'm quickly starting to consider a friend, has been up with me and we've been texting back and forth over cell phones to keep each other awake.
anyway, i think i'm going to have a drink and head to bed as soon as i make sure everything's been done that needed to be done. later!

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almost always? or always?...

today is a wonderful day. why? because i got out of having to drive to the museum for my class today which means i finally have a day off. w00t! i'll have to go to a museum on my own time this weekend, but it means that i miss traffic, take as much time as i want, and can take someone with me. i like those terms much better.

my class, however, is actually not as bad as i make it out to be. yes, it is a hell of a lot of work, and it's kept me insanely busy, (and will continue to do so for another week), and yes, we do almost everything in groups, which drives me nuts being the general anti-social high anxiety person i am. however, i really feel that i'm getting something out of it. all of our assignments, minus classwork, and tests are online, which means that i do them on my own terms, and in turn, actually learn something. as for the groupwork, while i absolutely detest it, is actually bringing me out of my shell a bit and forcing me to be social which is a good thing.

as for the title of this post: to my friend who thinks i am 'almost always right', i'm glad i could help, and you know i'll always be there for you, even when i can't help. :)
however, as to have something to talk about, i do have to stand by my motto that i am *always* right. i say this because, well, it's true. i take great precautions in making sure that i do not speak of things i know nothing of, and if i am speaking on something that i am not sure of, i will always state, "now i could be wrong." thus, i can never be truly wrong, because if i'm wrong, then i was right in saying that i could be. :) but seriously, when it comes to people, you can bank on me being right. i've always had this natural knack for reading people, and figuring them out. i've always said that i can tell if i'm going to like a person within the first five minutes of meeting them. in all reality, it's more like the first thirty seconds, but i do try to give people at least a full five to make an impression on me. even as anti-social as i am these days. i have really great instincts and gut feelings about situations and people, and i have never known them to be wrong.

daytime t.v. is absolutely horrible, btw. and i don't just mean the shows. commercials seem to be so much worse during the day too. i don't understand. luckily jeopardy is on right now, but after that there's little hope that anything worthwhile will be on.

i don't really have much else to talk about sadly. i am currently out of rants, mainly because i just haven't had the time to write any, but perhaps i will get around to writing some today, and then there will actually be something entertaining to read next time i post. i'll warn now that it will probably be about religion because i've been thinking a lot about that topic since taking this humanities class and really reading about ancient civilizations, myths, beliefs and religions. just a heads up that the next rant could possibly hit a nerve for some.
anyways. later!

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a mind so full it's empty...

wow, it's been a busy busy week, and there's still some more to come.

while maymester classes may sound like an appealing way to get a class out of the way in two weeks, you quickly find that it's a whirlwind of complete disorganization and ongoing deadlines. anyway. only eight more days left of it. i'll be fine.

what else can i say? i'm kind of at a loss for words today. too much going on and not enough time to process it all. i have all these great thoughts and ideas pop up when i'm just about asleep at night, or when i'm in the shower and can't write them down. unfortunately, that's usually how my brain works regardless of how crazy my life and schedule get, and it tends to lead to a lot of lost and forgotten ideas. very sad.

i have to get to bed though. my head is really hurting, and i'm beginning to wonder if the human mind really does have a temporary holding capacity that shouldn't be breached. if so...i'm way past it.

night!

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quick howdy hey...

so there's not much going on. today starts maymester, which means i have a four hour class, monday thru friday, for the next two weeks. does not sound like my idea of fun, but it lets me get a class out of the way quickly.
anyway. haven't been up to much lately. i had a few good days off where i got some stuff taken care of that i hadn't had time to do. i also got a ticket for speeding in a school zone...oops. other than that, not much else is happening.
with all that said, i should probably get my shit together and head to class. yea...bleh. alrighty. later.

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which came first...

with finals going on, and things being a bit hectic right now there's not a whole lot going on right now. so, with that said, you can now enjoy another installment of randomness written at work. these are taken directly as written, with no changes made in the transferring process other than not capitalizing words. enjoy:
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you can put a square peg in a round hole, it just takes a bit of force. either that or you file it down on the sides. kind of like life. we are all square pegs and life is a round hole. if you shave down who you are, removing a little from each side, eventually you'll fit right in without any problems. well, minus the fact that you won't be your own person anymore, and that everything that made you unique will have been shaved off to make you fit in and be like everyone else.
on the other hand, you could keep all that makes you, you, but never really be able to fit into the round hole without a whole lot of pushing and shoving, whichwill inevitably leave you a bit torn up and splintered.
so how do we choose? or do we choose? maybe we are each pre-destined to play the roles we play. either we fit nicely in with life and float along like a drone, or we push and shove to make life work and still hold onto who we are. is there a median? can one be both? one can obviously want both, but can one truly obtain both? is it possible to fit into a round hole while still keeping your edge? if you strive to be part in the round hole, are you already losing your sides and becoming more round? what if you choose to be a square peg and that's it? no round hole, no nothing. what then? if more than one does this, doesn't a round hole eventually occur, and all those square pegs then become round to fit in?
by the way, the chicken came first. otherwise the egg wouldn't have survived.

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comments...

ok, comments have been turned back on, so it no longer requires my authorization. if i start getting crap comments again, however, i will go right back to monitoring them. so please, feel free to comment on anything, but i do ask you sign your comments, even if i know you. thanks!

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warning, the following will make no sense...

lately, when i get bored at work, i start writing in a notebook. whatever comes to my head is what i write, and usually it's just random ramblings that probably only mean something to me. the following is an example of one of those instances:
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there's this ongoing feeling that we're all searching for something. an ongoing longing, if you will. will we ever find it? will we ever fill the void in our lives? perhaps it's something that we can only find within ourselves, but we're too busy looking to everyone else for the answers. or perhaps it doesn't exist at all, and if we could just stop looking we'd see that.
it is doubtful that we will ever know the meaning of life, or be able to answer all of life's great mysteries, but still we search, and question, and ponder. not that i think questioning or pondering is a bad thing, but i do not think it should be the only thing. there's a saying that curiosity killed the cat. then again, there's also a saying that to make an omlet you're going to have to break a few eggs.
if we search all of our lives for answers we may never find, was our life worth it? or will we all look back with regrets, wishing we would have done things differently? am i failing to adhere to my own logic by writing this? by giving thought to thought, am i creating a vicious cycle? will it never end? in death do we stop? or do we merely continue on in another life, in another form?
in death we give life to the earth, which sustains life for the animals, which sustains life for humanity. unless, that is, you're a vegetarian or vegan, and then you just stop at the second step and ignore the third one altogether. regardless, by giving life back after death, is that our purpose? do we only live to die? is death an endpoint, or a goal? what makes it either? will we ever know? does anyone else actually care?
doubtful. that's okay. when i'm out of space on the page i will be done. though, can you ever actually be out of space? isn't there always going to be more space? space is, as far as we know, infinite. we have so much space that we feel the need to fill it up. there's space we haven't even discovered, but rest assured that when we do we will start filling it up too. accumulation of stuff. maybe that's life. or space. who knows.

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