can't beat getting paid to sleep...

that's right. i took a thirty minute nap today at work. i really didn't mean to, it just sort of happened, but i'm not complaining. being sick doesn't help with the exhaustion thing, so it all just kind of built up and my body decided to crash for a bit.

not really a whole hell of a lot to update about really. like the current weather, i'm having trouble deciding what the hell i want to do. with school, with work, with life in general. school went down the crap shoot this semester, but it seems to have happened with everyone, and not just me. work is...well, i can't really complain too much about work, other than the store will be moving in late may or early june, and then i either have to drive thirty minutes to get there, or find a job somewhere else. so that's kind of up in the air right now. and as far as life goes, well...hell, i don't think anyone ever really gets that shit figured out, so yeah.
i would just love to be able to focus on achieving a couple of core things so that i can get somewhere with stability and independence. unfortunately, i go back and forth, and up and down and all the way around things over and over again. there's too much that interests me on the one hand, and on the other, i don't feel that i'm quite good enough at any of it to really pursue it as anything more serious than just an interest or hobby.

i have found myself wanting to play trumpet again. it was always something that i excelled at, and always had so much fun doing. i love music, and to be able to play it always gave me such a full feeling. i can't really explain it, but it was just that...full. i still play bass guitar from time to time, but it doesn't give me that same feeling. probably because it isn't a lead instrument, and it's hard to get anywhere near that feeling without music accompanying it. and unfortunately i can't play guitar all that well, partially from lack of practice, partially from lack of mobility in my fingers/hands. anyway.

i've been doing yoga off and on recently. it definitely helps stretch out my back and hips, which helps with all the pain, especially in this weird texas weather. i can't say that i have been doing it routinely, but i'm going to start next week, along with some cardio, and of course my weekly game of racquetball with the sarge. i also want to take a kickboxing class through the rec. center i'm a member at. it's not like that tae-bo crap though, it's real kickboxing. getting to hit and kick shit...sounds right up my alley. i just need to go by the center and find out how muc it's going to cost and get all the details and stuff. i'm pretty excited about it. if anyone is interested in doing it with me, let me know, because i'm kind of shy about doing it by myself!

ok, well i get to shut down the store now, so i'm going to get outta here. later!

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