so apparently the time change was this weekend. i know i was told about it, but i'll be damned if i remembered it. so now i'm a bit screwed up, but that's ok. it'll work itself out. just may take a couple of days of weird sleep til it does.
anyway.
i'm sitting here with paint all over my hands, desk and keyboard because all i've really been doing this weekend is, well, painting. i started and finished two new ones, and have started working on one that i started a long time ago and felt differently about now. it's definitely heading in a better direction now. i don't think i can call it done yet, but probably not too much longer. we'll see. i've really started to experiment with colors and layers and stuff. the last three i've done i really like, so it can't be all bad i spose. i really need to get everything finished up and varnished before we move in a couple of weeks. which reminds me...
we move in two and a half weeks!!! yay!!!!!! this makes me very happy because i am so ready for a change. i've found myself not caring about too much lately, and i think a change in scenery will be good for me. it'll give me something to do if nothing else. plus, i really like decorating, which is so totally girly of me, but i can't help it, it's the artsy fartsy side of me really.
let's see...what else. oh, i ordered one of rob's christmas presents the other day. i know it's early, but i figured i'd better get it before it went out of stock again, and that way i don't have to worry about getting it in time and stuff. so, yeah...sweet.
lately i've really been digging the band 'blue october'. i really liked them when they first came about a few years ago, but then they kinda faded away, and it wasn't until recently that i really started to hear them again. they are quite a good band, and most of their lyrics are meaningful which is important seeing as how most bands these days think it's just about being 'different' or 'the same' or whatever. music has a way of pissing me off because of it's suckage level, however this band usually rises above that level, which few rarely do.
wow, i'm tired.
alrighty, well that's my cue to cut this off and say fare-the-well. so, later punks!
-e
Monday, October 30, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
yeeeeeeeeeah...
Friday, October 27, 2006
keep all counter tops clean...
this is extremely cool...
that is, if you're into learning interesting things.
no real post or update to give at this point. same ole same ole. school, work, sleep. i'm currently at work and no one is here, go figure. 8p.m. on a friday night...i wonder where everyone could be?! oh wait, that's right...people actually have lives. i don't. not that i'm complaining at all. in fact, i thoroughly enjoy not having that kind of hectic schedule of going out all the time, and always having plans and crap. i realized long ago that by not doing all that typical teenager-to-twenty something party crap, i could actually accomplish things in my own life such as my art, and the piles of laundry that accumulate over time. :) not that either of those things really have much to do with the other.
ok, so obviously i'm on darvocet which has hindered my ability to think and/or type clearly, so i'm going to go back to my boring friday night at work. enjoy the weekend everyone.
-e
that is, if you're into learning interesting things.
no real post or update to give at this point. same ole same ole. school, work, sleep. i'm currently at work and no one is here, go figure. 8p.m. on a friday night...i wonder where everyone could be?! oh wait, that's right...people actually have lives. i don't. not that i'm complaining at all. in fact, i thoroughly enjoy not having that kind of hectic schedule of going out all the time, and always having plans and crap. i realized long ago that by not doing all that typical teenager-to-twenty something party crap, i could actually accomplish things in my own life such as my art, and the piles of laundry that accumulate over time. :) not that either of those things really have much to do with the other.
ok, so obviously i'm on darvocet which has hindered my ability to think and/or type clearly, so i'm going to go back to my boring friday night at work. enjoy the weekend everyone.
-e
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
intended for single use only...
wow i'm tired. today was nothing out of the ordinary really, but for some reason i am absolutely exhausted. there were two highlights to my day:
1. i got in an arguement with my bcis professor...well, technically, he got into an arguement with me since he started it by treating me like i was some teenager in high school. i ended up having to explain to him that i pay to be there, and that i will not be disrespected that way by professor as unorganized as himself. i mean, the man teaches out of a cardboard box! it takes him twenty minutes at the beginning of every class to find everything he needs in order to actually start class. it's a complete waste of my time to show up, and so monday i didn't, and he felt the need to inquire as to why i wasn't there in front of everyone. when i explained to him that it was none of his business he then asked why i showed up today, to which i responded, "do you want me to leave?" he then made some comment about how if i'm going to show up i can't just sit there and talk. for any of you that know me, you must realize how absurd this statement is. i'm completely anti-social and speak to almost no one unless prompted to. that's when i said what i said, and he tucked his tail between his legs and shut up. it was a shining moment for me. especially when everyone else in class was behind me for it.
the second highlight for the day really pales in comparison to that, however, it was a highlight for me because i've really been too lazy and apathetic to do it until today.
2. i finally got my hair cut. i seriously needed it, and am extremely glad to have gotten it done and out of the way. of course i'll need to get it cut again in a month or so, but why worry about that now? exactly.
ok well, the boyfriend is waiting for me to play video games with him downstairs, so i'd better go before i get too tired to do so. have a great rest of the week!
-e
1. i got in an arguement with my bcis professor...well, technically, he got into an arguement with me since he started it by treating me like i was some teenager in high school. i ended up having to explain to him that i pay to be there, and that i will not be disrespected that way by professor as unorganized as himself. i mean, the man teaches out of a cardboard box! it takes him twenty minutes at the beginning of every class to find everything he needs in order to actually start class. it's a complete waste of my time to show up, and so monday i didn't, and he felt the need to inquire as to why i wasn't there in front of everyone. when i explained to him that it was none of his business he then asked why i showed up today, to which i responded, "do you want me to leave?" he then made some comment about how if i'm going to show up i can't just sit there and talk. for any of you that know me, you must realize how absurd this statement is. i'm completely anti-social and speak to almost no one unless prompted to. that's when i said what i said, and he tucked his tail between his legs and shut up. it was a shining moment for me. especially when everyone else in class was behind me for it.
the second highlight for the day really pales in comparison to that, however, it was a highlight for me because i've really been too lazy and apathetic to do it until today.
2. i finally got my hair cut. i seriously needed it, and am extremely glad to have gotten it done and out of the way. of course i'll need to get it cut again in a month or so, but why worry about that now? exactly.
ok well, the boyfriend is waiting for me to play video games with him downstairs, so i'd better go before i get too tired to do so. have a great rest of the week!
-e
Monday, October 23, 2006
a wicked mega hit that delivers twice the buzz...
today was a freaking awesome day! rob and i joined the rec center this morning and played a nearly full set of racquetball! it was so much fun and rob really enjoyed it which makes me extremely happy! we're planning on playing every saturday after i get off of work and then sunday's as well! yea!!!!!!!
after we got done playing we came home, showered and then went to lunch at souper salad which was just delicious! then we headed to target for a few things we needed, and then it was home for nap time! the rest of our day has been pretty laid back. there was dinner and vh1 shows, and we went to the store around 10:30p.m. for groceries. now i'm just chillin here after my bath and rob is playing a yoshi game on his comp.
i took a benadryl a little bit ago so i don't think i'll be up too much longer. that stuff hits me like a ton of bricks, and that's only taking half of a dosage. i will definitely be sleeping hard tonite.
i have a couple of projects i'm working on currently. most of them are still in brainstorming stages, but will probably be moving forward more quickly once this week picks up.
i was supposed to do laundry today, and that didn't happen at all. now it's after midnite and i haven't even done a single load. ah well, i'll get around to it eventually i suppose.
ok, so i just noticed that when rob was in my room installing stuff on my computer he posed one of my undertaker toys and i took a picture because i felt the need to share. the picture is crap, but just done for entertainment purposes. so on that note i will leave you with this picture and bid you a goodnite.
-e
after we got done playing we came home, showered and then went to lunch at souper salad which was just delicious! then we headed to target for a few things we needed, and then it was home for nap time! the rest of our day has been pretty laid back. there was dinner and vh1 shows, and we went to the store around 10:30p.m. for groceries. now i'm just chillin here after my bath and rob is playing a yoshi game on his comp.
i took a benadryl a little bit ago so i don't think i'll be up too much longer. that stuff hits me like a ton of bricks, and that's only taking half of a dosage. i will definitely be sleeping hard tonite.
i have a couple of projects i'm working on currently. most of them are still in brainstorming stages, but will probably be moving forward more quickly once this week picks up.
i was supposed to do laundry today, and that didn't happen at all. now it's after midnite and i haven't even done a single load. ah well, i'll get around to it eventually i suppose.
ok, so i just noticed that when rob was in my room installing stuff on my computer he posed one of my undertaker toys and i took a picture because i felt the need to share. the picture is crap, but just done for entertainment purposes. so on that note i will leave you with this picture and bid you a goodnite.
-e
Sunday, October 22, 2006
don't want to live forever this way, but it's gonna have to do for today...
today was my first saturday where i got out of work at 2:30p.m. and had the rest of the afternoon to be with rob and do stuff! it was so exactly what i needed. we hung out for a bit, then decided to go check out the rec center over by the school and see about memberships and stuff, then we headed to the store for milk, and then we went to the movies and saw 'man of the year'. the movie wasn't that good really, but just the entire day was a really nice change.
oh, and i made photograms while brian did some printing in the wet lab this morning. it was completely cheesey and stupid, but it was still fun. then this evening we went to starbucks and then to michael's where i got, i think 12 new canvas' for painting, then we hung out and had personal time, then we ate dinner and watched this week's smallville episode which was just incredible! i love it when they just completely geek out and go all comic book with the storylines.
tomorrow is slated to be another good day as well. i have some laundry to do so that i can actually have clean clothes for the week. then we're going back over to the rec center and signing up for memberships and will probably play a full set of racquetball (which is why we want to join in the first place). we bought rob some gear the other day and he's really excited about it, which rocks because i've been trying to find something that we can do together and isn't dependent on the weather, like tennis or biking, etc...
other than that, not much else to report on. i guess since i have all of this new canvas i will be painting sometime in the near future. i did finish another painting last nite. it's *a lot* different that most of my other stuff, but i really like it. it's all about time...oooo, i know, this one actually has meaning, and i'm willing to admit it...imagine that. :) it's a growing thing i guess. anyway. well rob is waiting for me to come cuddle, so i'm off for the nite. enjoy your respective weekends people. later!
-e
oh, and i made photograms while brian did some printing in the wet lab this morning. it was completely cheesey and stupid, but it was still fun. then this evening we went to starbucks and then to michael's where i got, i think 12 new canvas' for painting, then we hung out and had personal time, then we ate dinner and watched this week's smallville episode which was just incredible! i love it when they just completely geek out and go all comic book with the storylines.
tomorrow is slated to be another good day as well. i have some laundry to do so that i can actually have clean clothes for the week. then we're going back over to the rec center and signing up for memberships and will probably play a full set of racquetball (which is why we want to join in the first place). we bought rob some gear the other day and he's really excited about it, which rocks because i've been trying to find something that we can do together and isn't dependent on the weather, like tennis or biking, etc...
other than that, not much else to report on. i guess since i have all of this new canvas i will be painting sometime in the near future. i did finish another painting last nite. it's *a lot* different that most of my other stuff, but i really like it. it's all about time...oooo, i know, this one actually has meaning, and i'm willing to admit it...imagine that. :) it's a growing thing i guess. anyway. well rob is waiting for me to come cuddle, so i'm off for the nite. enjoy your respective weekends people. later!
-e
Thursday, October 19, 2006
and I forget the rest of me...
just a general update here. nothing too interesting or profound, so don't get your hopes up.
this week i was finally able to end my search for a new hoodie. i didn't only end the search, i dropped a ten ton weight on it. i am now the proud owner of three very cool zip up hoodies. i got one lightweight hoodie that's a maroon color, a medium weight hoodie that's green, and a heavier weight hoodie that's brown. yay me! also this week i got a new pair of shoes. they're grey vans that were on clearance and that i got for even less than the clearance price because one of the shoes was missing a shoe-lace, so i negotiated the price and got an additional 15% off. i could have pushed for 20%, but the lady was real nice about it, and i hate being a pushy bitch of a customer. oh! when i got my new hoodies i also got two new beanies that are awesome!
work is going ok. the boss man and i are on neutral terms currently, so that's cool. there's not really a lot to report on there, so i'll move on.
uhm...i was going to move on to the topic of school, but that's pretty much the same situation as work, so yeah...
in the past week it has been pointed out to me that i use the terms "sure", "indeeed" (purposefully mispelled because that's how i say it), and "i don't know" quite often throughout the day. now, personally i don't see the problem with this. i view all three of these terms as universal, interchangeable terms that can work in most situations by someone that knows how to properly use them in those situations...someone like me. however, from what i gather, it seems to be problematic to others. perhaps it's the indifference that can be conveyed through them at certain times, or maybe it's that people don't always know what i mean by them, but when it comes down to it, isn't that the point of saying something to that effect? seems to me to be. if ya think about it, that's probably why i use them so often. go figure.
well i haven't done much painting lately. i have started a new one just earlier tonite, however, i have been at a lack for inspiration as of late. i don't know, we'll see where it goes. i have some ideas for a couple of photography projects i want to work on, but i'm having a hard time finding the motivation to work on those either. i've written them out and brainstormed on them a bit, bought film and whatnot, but i don't know...it's just whatever. it'll get done at some point if it's important enough i suppose.
huh...well look at that. it's amazing how someone can message you one message and cause inspiration to spark out of nowhere. i'm off...later.
-e
this week i was finally able to end my search for a new hoodie. i didn't only end the search, i dropped a ten ton weight on it. i am now the proud owner of three very cool zip up hoodies. i got one lightweight hoodie that's a maroon color, a medium weight hoodie that's green, and a heavier weight hoodie that's brown. yay me! also this week i got a new pair of shoes. they're grey vans that were on clearance and that i got for even less than the clearance price because one of the shoes was missing a shoe-lace, so i negotiated the price and got an additional 15% off. i could have pushed for 20%, but the lady was real nice about it, and i hate being a pushy bitch of a customer. oh! when i got my new hoodies i also got two new beanies that are awesome!
work is going ok. the boss man and i are on neutral terms currently, so that's cool. there's not really a lot to report on there, so i'll move on.
uhm...i was going to move on to the topic of school, but that's pretty much the same situation as work, so yeah...
in the past week it has been pointed out to me that i use the terms "sure", "indeeed" (purposefully mispelled because that's how i say it), and "i don't know" quite often throughout the day. now, personally i don't see the problem with this. i view all three of these terms as universal, interchangeable terms that can work in most situations by someone that knows how to properly use them in those situations...someone like me. however, from what i gather, it seems to be problematic to others. perhaps it's the indifference that can be conveyed through them at certain times, or maybe it's that people don't always know what i mean by them, but when it comes down to it, isn't that the point of saying something to that effect? seems to me to be. if ya think about it, that's probably why i use them so often. go figure.
well i haven't done much painting lately. i have started a new one just earlier tonite, however, i have been at a lack for inspiration as of late. i don't know, we'll see where it goes. i have some ideas for a couple of photography projects i want to work on, but i'm having a hard time finding the motivation to work on those either. i've written them out and brainstormed on them a bit, bought film and whatnot, but i don't know...it's just whatever. it'll get done at some point if it's important enough i suppose.
huh...well look at that. it's amazing how someone can message you one message and cause inspiration to spark out of nowhere. i'm off...later.
-e
Sunday, October 15, 2006
linkage...
this site has been a favorite of mine for quite some time. i don't remember how i came across it, or if maybe i've even posted it in some past blog post, but i happened to come across the link again today buried away in my mass of favorites, and decided to share it with anyone who reads this.
a really brilliant idea, with excellent execution...
take the time to have a look. maybe think about submitting your own postcard. who knows. maybe come across someone's you think you may know.
enjoy.
-e
a really brilliant idea, with excellent execution...
take the time to have a look. maybe think about submitting your own postcard. who knows. maybe come across someone's you think you may know.
enjoy.
-e
i am, i am superman, and i can do anything...
yea for rain! i'm always in such a better mood on cold rainy days. i'm sure that probably says something about my personality.
the plan for today: absolutely nada. it's currently 1:30p.m. and i am still sitting here in my pj's. i did a little painting this morning once i got up, and i've done a couple loads of laundry, but nothing too strenuous or demanding. i actually got up around 9:30 this morning to feed the kitties. i thought about staying up, but it's not very often that i get to sleep in with rob, so back to bed i went.
i should probably do some reading for biology since i've gotta get up extra early tomorrow to go take a test over three chapters. ugh...not looking forward to that. i'll do it later tho. i have to take advantage of days like this since they are so few and far between. it's not very often that my mood lifts this high, and i try to get as much done during that time as possible. so i am off for the day. rob is making lunch and i need to hop in the shower so we can go out for a bit later. i'm definitely feeling a starbucks run at some point. it's a perfect pumpkin spice latte kind of day :D
alright everyone...enjoy!
-e
the plan for today: absolutely nada. it's currently 1:30p.m. and i am still sitting here in my pj's. i did a little painting this morning once i got up, and i've done a couple loads of laundry, but nothing too strenuous or demanding. i actually got up around 9:30 this morning to feed the kitties. i thought about staying up, but it's not very often that i get to sleep in with rob, so back to bed i went.
i should probably do some reading for biology since i've gotta get up extra early tomorrow to go take a test over three chapters. ugh...not looking forward to that. i'll do it later tho. i have to take advantage of days like this since they are so few and far between. it's not very often that my mood lifts this high, and i try to get as much done during that time as possible. so i am off for the day. rob is making lunch and i need to hop in the shower so we can go out for a bit later. i'm definitely feeling a starbucks run at some point. it's a perfect pumpkin spice latte kind of day :D
alright everyone...enjoy!
-e
Saturday, October 14, 2006
for those hard-to-reach places, simply attach extension tube...
my ex knows something about extension tubes...if ya know what i mean...
wow...sorry...anyway
i'm at work...bored. go fig.
and with that boredom, comes a boring post, i'm sure. however, i need something other than the sounds of little photo-oners hard at work to keep me awake. so suffer with me you shall.
i've been looking at laptops online for the past few days, and i really think i'm going to get one. i was originally drooling over the apple mac books, however after taking a look and realizing that one of their models has a $300 difference depending on whether you want a black exterior or a white exterior, i kind of lost my enthusiasm for them. so then i got to looking at dell and hp, and both have a lot to offer, though i think right now i'm leaning towards hp. they seem to be a little bit better priced for what i'm going to want after customizing, so we'll see. i'm really just tired of my desktop that is over 5 years old, and even though it has been upgraded a couple of times within those five years, it really seems to be struggling these days. i have to trick it in order to get it to boot properly, and if you get too much going on at one time it likes to freeze up. i can't really complain...it's been a great computer...even if it was originally my ex's baby. my monitor is the one thing i'm going to hate to see go...i love that monitor. it's so beautiful in it's 19" of flat tube glory. i got it for free through a friend about five years ago as well, and he got if for free after taking it from work. can't complain about free. i may sell it on ebay, just to make some money off of it since it is in perfect working condition.
alas, i'm getting ahead of myself. there will be no getting rid of anything til i actually have a laptop in my posession, and that may be a little bit. here's to hopin' tho.
ok, so an hour and a half later and i'm back to actually posting this. i had to explain depth of field to dear sweet brian. we love him...he's just a little special ;)
alrighty...so, i have completely lost my train of thought and i think i'm going to go hang out in the digital lab with brian and jamie for a bit...cause that's why i get paid the big bucks.
-e
wow...sorry...anyway
i'm at work...bored. go fig.
and with that boredom, comes a boring post, i'm sure. however, i need something other than the sounds of little photo-oners hard at work to keep me awake. so suffer with me you shall.
i've been looking at laptops online for the past few days, and i really think i'm going to get one. i was originally drooling over the apple mac books, however after taking a look and realizing that one of their models has a $300 difference depending on whether you want a black exterior or a white exterior, i kind of lost my enthusiasm for them. so then i got to looking at dell and hp, and both have a lot to offer, though i think right now i'm leaning towards hp. they seem to be a little bit better priced for what i'm going to want after customizing, so we'll see. i'm really just tired of my desktop that is over 5 years old, and even though it has been upgraded a couple of times within those five years, it really seems to be struggling these days. i have to trick it in order to get it to boot properly, and if you get too much going on at one time it likes to freeze up. i can't really complain...it's been a great computer...even if it was originally my ex's baby. my monitor is the one thing i'm going to hate to see go...i love that monitor. it's so beautiful in it's 19" of flat tube glory. i got it for free through a friend about five years ago as well, and he got if for free after taking it from work. can't complain about free. i may sell it on ebay, just to make some money off of it since it is in perfect working condition.
alas, i'm getting ahead of myself. there will be no getting rid of anything til i actually have a laptop in my posession, and that may be a little bit. here's to hopin' tho.
ok, so an hour and a half later and i'm back to actually posting this. i had to explain depth of field to dear sweet brian. we love him...he's just a little special ;)
alrighty...so, i have completely lost my train of thought and i think i'm going to go hang out in the digital lab with brian and jamie for a bit...cause that's why i get paid the big bucks.
-e
Friday, October 13, 2006
a uniform matte finish...
well, today has been an interesting one. ok, not really, at least, not in any way that would be of any interest to any of you.
i really have not felt like doing anything at all today. well, really for the past couple of weeks, but it really seemed to come to the forefront today. i didn't even get out of bed til 10:30a.m. and once i was up, it took me til nearly noon to shower and put clothes on. then i just sat around watching t.v. but not really watching it, and simply existing.
i went to my lab practical at 2. i was nearly late because of my own wonderful stupidity, but i made it, and all went well. then i came home to do more of the same mentioned earlier. my sister called around 4p.m., interrupting my existing, and we chatted for a bit. she called to thank me for her b-day gift, which ended up being a $25 gift card to kohl's. i'm really glad that something i got her is actually useful. anyway, we talked about random stuff for awhile, and then when we were done i went back to watching t.v. til nearly 5 p.m. when i had to be at work.
work was absolutely boring, however i did manage to get a lot done. i cleaned counters and stuff, which at least made me feel somewhat useful for a change. it'll make boss-man happy, which makes everyone's life easier, so i can't complain about that. then i came home and ate for really the first time all day, aside from the five donut holes and mini bag of popcorn i'd had earlier.
now i'm here, typing this, thinking about going and taking a bath or something. i should apologize for how absolutely mundane these posts have been recently. there really isn't that much excitement in my life (not that i'm complaining...i like calm), and i haven't felt like really giving life too much thought in order to make interesting, philisophical blog posts.
and on that note, i will close for the evening. enjoy your weekend, however you spend it.
later.
-e
i really have not felt like doing anything at all today. well, really for the past couple of weeks, but it really seemed to come to the forefront today. i didn't even get out of bed til 10:30a.m. and once i was up, it took me til nearly noon to shower and put clothes on. then i just sat around watching t.v. but not really watching it, and simply existing.
i went to my lab practical at 2. i was nearly late because of my own wonderful stupidity, but i made it, and all went well. then i came home to do more of the same mentioned earlier. my sister called around 4p.m., interrupting my existing, and we chatted for a bit. she called to thank me for her b-day gift, which ended up being a $25 gift card to kohl's. i'm really glad that something i got her is actually useful. anyway, we talked about random stuff for awhile, and then when we were done i went back to watching t.v. til nearly 5 p.m. when i had to be at work.
work was absolutely boring, however i did manage to get a lot done. i cleaned counters and stuff, which at least made me feel somewhat useful for a change. it'll make boss-man happy, which makes everyone's life easier, so i can't complain about that. then i came home and ate for really the first time all day, aside from the five donut holes and mini bag of popcorn i'd had earlier.
now i'm here, typing this, thinking about going and taking a bath or something. i should apologize for how absolutely mundane these posts have been recently. there really isn't that much excitement in my life (not that i'm complaining...i like calm), and i haven't felt like really giving life too much thought in order to make interesting, philisophical blog posts.
and on that note, i will close for the evening. enjoy your weekend, however you spend it.
later.
-e
try blending colors...
when i started this, i had some profound post in mind about something that was rather intelligent and, well...profound. needless to say, that isn't the case now.
however, it is 12:34, and that's pretty cool.
uh...oh...well, what's going in my life currently...
tomorrow i have a lab practical for biology. it covers seven units, i haven't studied, and i really haven't paid much attention in lab class, so...yeah. i'm fucked. i also have a biology lecture exam going in the testing center tomorrow thru monday morning. i have not studied for that one either, and it covers three very long chapters. go me! i'm just kickin' ass aren't i?
yeah.
no.
anyway.
i had some really funny story about how you could bury someone after murdering them and get away with it, but i can't really recall the whole thing right now. it was clever tho, i know that! perhaps next time.
it's amazing how such a small white pill can mess with one's reality. kind of freaky, but at least it makes the pain stop. and that...that is good. that is very good.
i think i tore something in my thigh playing racquetball today. it made a wonderful noise when it happened, and felt oh so fantastic. hint...that was sarcasm. it feels better now, though. mainly because i just can't feel it at all.
ok...um...oh, rob and i found a new place to live. we have one month before we move, which means i need to start packing fairly soon. it's out in the middle of nowhere, but still close enough to civilization that it's comfortable. i'm very happy with this. i really can't stand where we are living right now, and i'm really looking forward to getting the hell outta here. we're going to lose a little bit of living space in the new place, but gain a lot of storage space, which is really what we need. so, yea!
ok, well i'm out of crap to talk about now. this was a rather useless post, but i figured i should post something before people started bitching at me for no updates. i will catch y'all later.
-e
however, it is 12:34, and that's pretty cool.
uh...oh...well, what's going in my life currently...
tomorrow i have a lab practical for biology. it covers seven units, i haven't studied, and i really haven't paid much attention in lab class, so...yeah. i'm fucked. i also have a biology lecture exam going in the testing center tomorrow thru monday morning. i have not studied for that one either, and it covers three very long chapters. go me! i'm just kickin' ass aren't i?
yeah.
no.
anyway.
i had some really funny story about how you could bury someone after murdering them and get away with it, but i can't really recall the whole thing right now. it was clever tho, i know that! perhaps next time.
it's amazing how such a small white pill can mess with one's reality. kind of freaky, but at least it makes the pain stop. and that...that is good. that is very good.
i think i tore something in my thigh playing racquetball today. it made a wonderful noise when it happened, and felt oh so fantastic. hint...that was sarcasm. it feels better now, though. mainly because i just can't feel it at all.
ok...um...oh, rob and i found a new place to live. we have one month before we move, which means i need to start packing fairly soon. it's out in the middle of nowhere, but still close enough to civilization that it's comfortable. i'm very happy with this. i really can't stand where we are living right now, and i'm really looking forward to getting the hell outta here. we're going to lose a little bit of living space in the new place, but gain a lot of storage space, which is really what we need. so, yea!
ok, well i'm out of crap to talk about now. this was a rather useless post, but i figured i should post something before people started bitching at me for no updates. i will catch y'all later.
-e
Saturday, October 07, 2006
calling you...
well, i was going to take pictures of a few paintings and post them for those of you that were bugging me about them, however, the lighting in here sucks for taking pictures, and i don't feel like going to the trouble of setting up better lighting to fix that problem. i tried using the flash, but that throws the colour way off, and i can't respect myself if i do that.
today after work, rob and i went driving around looking at apartments. our lease is up at the end of november, and we are both ready to get the hell out of the place we're living now. we found a few places further north that i think we're pretty interested in checking out, and a couple west as well. we've both just been so spoiled living where we are now because we're both 5-7 minutes away from work, which is so nice. as i told rob though, i'll gladly trade the drive for peace. i want somewhere that, after a long day, i can go to and feel, well, at home. i just don't have that feeling here, and as a result i never really fully moved in. we still have boxes of stuff sitting downstairs in the dining room, and that's always just such an uneasy feeling.
work was decent today. i had very few people show up, and those that did were pleasant enough. no demanding little shits, which was nice.
oh yeah...after apartment hunting, rob and i got a bug up our butts to go play tennis since it was so nice out. so we headed over to the high school that's down the road to knock some balls around. it was a lot of fun, til i stepped wrong going after a ball, and twisted my knee badly. something snapped when it happened, and while it hurt like a bitch right after it happened, about two minutes later it was perfectly fine and felt even better than when we'd first gotten there. turns out that was just the adrenalin kicking in because that fucker is hurting like bloody hell now. i know, i'm a smart one. go me!
and on that note, i am off to take a bath and chill out for the rest of the evening. ciao!
-e
today after work, rob and i went driving around looking at apartments. our lease is up at the end of november, and we are both ready to get the hell out of the place we're living now. we found a few places further north that i think we're pretty interested in checking out, and a couple west as well. we've both just been so spoiled living where we are now because we're both 5-7 minutes away from work, which is so nice. as i told rob though, i'll gladly trade the drive for peace. i want somewhere that, after a long day, i can go to and feel, well, at home. i just don't have that feeling here, and as a result i never really fully moved in. we still have boxes of stuff sitting downstairs in the dining room, and that's always just such an uneasy feeling.
work was decent today. i had very few people show up, and those that did were pleasant enough. no demanding little shits, which was nice.
oh yeah...after apartment hunting, rob and i got a bug up our butts to go play tennis since it was so nice out. so we headed over to the high school that's down the road to knock some balls around. it was a lot of fun, til i stepped wrong going after a ball, and twisted my knee badly. something snapped when it happened, and while it hurt like a bitch right after it happened, about two minutes later it was perfectly fine and felt even better than when we'd first gotten there. turns out that was just the adrenalin kicking in because that fucker is hurting like bloody hell now. i know, i'm a smart one. go me!
and on that note, i am off to take a bath and chill out for the rest of the evening. ciao!
-e
Friday, October 06, 2006
dreaming of me...
this morning i got up at 7:15a.m. in order to be at the photo lab by 8a.m. for a wonderful lab meeting. for the record, i would like to point out that, aside from the doucebag, i was the first one there. so, monster in hand, and beanie on the head i arrived with very little enthusiasm for seeing such an ungodly hour, and having to do so in such company. needless to say, i probably couldn't tell you what happened for the first twenty minutes of said meeting because i pretty much just checked out mentally. i started to realize about fifteen minutes in that i had been staring at a piece of paper on the floor the entire time mega-douce was talking. meh...if i missed something important it would be the first time that man had anything important to say, so i think i'll live.
i'm tired. also, i'm on painkillers, and that is beautiful. after not having taken my darvocet for about three months, i had forgotten it's magical powers that i simply adore. the past two days are a bit foggy, but it's a trade off for the pure relief of being able to walk up and down stairs in less than ten minutes one way. plus, people tend to like me better when i'm on 'em...i'm nicer because nothing matters.
i did some painting after i got home from work. i had been messing with one off and on all day, and when i got home i finished it, so yay. ok...i'm typing with my eyes closed at this point because i'm coming off meds, so i think i'm gonna go take something and then ehad to bed. much love to all fuckers. later!
-e
i'm tired. also, i'm on painkillers, and that is beautiful. after not having taken my darvocet for about three months, i had forgotten it's magical powers that i simply adore. the past two days are a bit foggy, but it's a trade off for the pure relief of being able to walk up and down stairs in less than ten minutes one way. plus, people tend to like me better when i'm on 'em...i'm nicer because nothing matters.
i did some painting after i got home from work. i had been messing with one off and on all day, and when i got home i finished it, so yay. ok...i'm typing with my eyes closed at this point because i'm coming off meds, so i think i'm gonna go take something and then ehad to bed. much love to all fuckers. later!
-e
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
It's easier to leave than to be left behind...
the title is an rem lyric...anyway...
per my therapists' request, i took along with me today four of my most recent paintings. this is a really big deal if you know me because i do not tend to allow others to view my work. let's just say, i'm not my biggest fan.
after pulling them out, my therapist says, ok, so what do they mean. and i thought about it..."uh, nothing really..." i said. and it hit me...that's pretty much true, or i've at least convinced myself of it. i went on to explain that my art doesn't start and stop with a specific purpose in mind, or some raw emotion i felt the need to get out, but that it's really more for the viewer to get whatever they want out of it.
ok, just a hint...wrong answer! never tell your therapist, the one that you pay to analyze you already, that your art is free for the assessment as well.
so she goes on to talk about the biggest of the four pieces, and explains how it makes her sad (as does everything in my life honestly) because it's so dark and there's this image of a door hidden within it, but that the darkness of it was depressing.
ok...so...yeah. there is actually something of resemblence of a door in the painting, but it only started out as that, and then got painted over so many times, and while it still shows through, it's not really that i meant anything by it. i didn't bother to tell her any of that, however, because the last thing i figured i needed was to hear about whether or not the door was opened or closed. she started down that road and i just kept her moving through the paintings.
after having gone through all four of them, and having to explain who rothko is, i was worn out. she sat there and gave me her evaluation on each one individually, and as i sat there once she was done, i realized that she had been fairly dead on with the first one. however, the other three she was way off...but i wasn't about to admit that there's any meaning behind anything i put out there.
and i'm still not. nope. dammit.
the rest of the session we talked about tons of other stuff...well, she did, i just sat there being all walled up and conveying some sense of control. then she said in response to some logical, unemotional answer i spouted off that i, "should just do math..." and it's then that i started to realize that i wasn't really paying much attention through most of the session. i was thinking about my art. not just painting, but photography, writing, drawing, painting...everything, and how i'm so absolutely afraid of putting myself out there for people to see. i don't want there to be meaning behind my work, because that makes it too real.
i started thinking about how everything i've done in photography over the past year has been so sterile. very little of what i've photographed has had any meaning. i think my photo I final was probably the one thing i've done that had any kind of emotion behind it. my paintings reveal more than my photography, and my writing even more so, and when it comes down to it, none are that great nor meaningful.
so what does all of this mean? i don't know. it means i'm really reconsidering my life at this point and where it's heading. i don't know that photography/art is really where i should be going. unless i want to just do sterile news photography for a paper/magazine somewhere, and, to me, that just defeats the purpose of having the degree.
anyway. uh...so yeah. i got interrupted and lost my train of thought, so i think i will just end this post now.
lost is on in an hour.
later.
-e
per my therapists' request, i took along with me today four of my most recent paintings. this is a really big deal if you know me because i do not tend to allow others to view my work. let's just say, i'm not my biggest fan.
after pulling them out, my therapist says, ok, so what do they mean. and i thought about it..."uh, nothing really..." i said. and it hit me...that's pretty much true, or i've at least convinced myself of it. i went on to explain that my art doesn't start and stop with a specific purpose in mind, or some raw emotion i felt the need to get out, but that it's really more for the viewer to get whatever they want out of it.
ok, just a hint...wrong answer! never tell your therapist, the one that you pay to analyze you already, that your art is free for the assessment as well.
so she goes on to talk about the biggest of the four pieces, and explains how it makes her sad (as does everything in my life honestly) because it's so dark and there's this image of a door hidden within it, but that the darkness of it was depressing.
ok...so...yeah. there is actually something of resemblence of a door in the painting, but it only started out as that, and then got painted over so many times, and while it still shows through, it's not really that i meant anything by it. i didn't bother to tell her any of that, however, because the last thing i figured i needed was to hear about whether or not the door was opened or closed. she started down that road and i just kept her moving through the paintings.
after having gone through all four of them, and having to explain who rothko is, i was worn out. she sat there and gave me her evaluation on each one individually, and as i sat there once she was done, i realized that she had been fairly dead on with the first one. however, the other three she was way off...but i wasn't about to admit that there's any meaning behind anything i put out there.
and i'm still not. nope. dammit.
the rest of the session we talked about tons of other stuff...well, she did, i just sat there being all walled up and conveying some sense of control. then she said in response to some logical, unemotional answer i spouted off that i, "should just do math..." and it's then that i started to realize that i wasn't really paying much attention through most of the session. i was thinking about my art. not just painting, but photography, writing, drawing, painting...everything, and how i'm so absolutely afraid of putting myself out there for people to see. i don't want there to be meaning behind my work, because that makes it too real.
i started thinking about how everything i've done in photography over the past year has been so sterile. very little of what i've photographed has had any meaning. i think my photo I final was probably the one thing i've done that had any kind of emotion behind it. my paintings reveal more than my photography, and my writing even more so, and when it comes down to it, none are that great nor meaningful.
so what does all of this mean? i don't know. it means i'm really reconsidering my life at this point and where it's heading. i don't know that photography/art is really where i should be going. unless i want to just do sterile news photography for a paper/magazine somewhere, and, to me, that just defeats the purpose of having the degree.
anyway. uh...so yeah. i got interrupted and lost my train of thought, so i think i will just end this post now.
lost is on in an hour.
later.
-e
madder than i've been in awhile...
every two weeks, on wednesday at 3p.m. i go to therapy. this is basically unheard of in my family, but whatever. i'm tired of being unhappy, so i started going about a month and a half ago. so today my appointment got switched to 2p.m. for whatever reason. i went, spent my $75, heard about how i'm too logical, and left with raised blood pressure and an anger i haven't felt in awhile.
however, i did refuse to do another damn collage. flat out refused.
so, then i drove to michael's where i spent $60 on more paint supplies to make myself feel better.
i'm now home, and still fuming.
the best part of it all is...i have no freaking clue as to why i am so angry!!!!!!!
ARGH!
ok, anyway. i'll be fine. that's what paint is for. gonna go. catch ya later.
-e
however, i did refuse to do another damn collage. flat out refused.
so, then i drove to michael's where i spent $60 on more paint supplies to make myself feel better.
i'm now home, and still fuming.
the best part of it all is...i have no freaking clue as to why i am so angry!!!!!!!
ARGH!
ok, anyway. i'll be fine. that's what paint is for. gonna go. catch ya later.
-e
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
umph...
so today was a rather fulfilling day. i got to actually play a little in racquetball, bitch about work with a co-worker or two, and got home in time for dr. phil! sweet! i also went to michael's today for more canvas, and ended up spending $40! oops! oh well. i'm sure it was all needed ;)
i have actually been fairly productive in the painting world lately. i completed two more paintings, one of which i had been working on for two weeks off and on. i started two more today, and i think i'm done with one. the other one is in a bit of a mess right now, so we'll have to see where it goes from here. i bought these really awesome water based, acid-free markers to experiment with, but the only problem is that they don't like to dry completely. so when i went to paint over it, the marker smeared, but currently i really like how it's turning out...i dunno. i'm so "if-fy" on that stuff.
rob and i watched another episode of 'heroes' tonite. it was pretty good. i'm hooked at this point mainly because i just want to see where they're taking it, not because it's a brilliant show or anything. it's just paced rather odd and is very incongruent (haha, i used a math term. i rule).
alrighty, well i'm gonna paint some more and then go snuggle up in bed. rob wasn't feeling well earlier, so he's already there. anyway. nite y'all.
-e
i have actually been fairly productive in the painting world lately. i completed two more paintings, one of which i had been working on for two weeks off and on. i started two more today, and i think i'm done with one. the other one is in a bit of a mess right now, so we'll have to see where it goes from here. i bought these really awesome water based, acid-free markers to experiment with, but the only problem is that they don't like to dry completely. so when i went to paint over it, the marker smeared, but currently i really like how it's turning out...i dunno. i'm so "if-fy" on that stuff.
rob and i watched another episode of 'heroes' tonite. it was pretty good. i'm hooked at this point mainly because i just want to see where they're taking it, not because it's a brilliant show or anything. it's just paced rather odd and is very incongruent (haha, i used a math term. i rule).
alrighty, well i'm gonna paint some more and then go snuggle up in bed. rob wasn't feeling well earlier, so he's already there. anyway. nite y'all.
-e
going through the archives...
so i decided to take a look back at some of my past bloggings, mainly for discretion purposes since my sister has access to this thing now ;) anyway, i came across some things that i found funny, and thought i would give some commentary on them in their current status:
December 08, 2005
rob found out today that someone he called a friend for the past six or seven years was in town recently and actually called one of their mutual friends to go hang out, but yet, we never heard from him.
December 08, 2005
rob found out today that someone he called a friend for the past six or seven years was in town recently and actually called one of their mutual friends to go hang out, but yet, we never heard from him.
- just recently, this same friend, or ex-friend of rob's sent out wedding invitations for his upcoming, well, wedding, and of course rob and i did not receive one. however, the mutual friend mentioned above did receive one. yeah...we're still not missing him.
December 15, 2005
however, the last time she went to the vet, we took macaroni as well, and found out that they weigh exactly the same amount. fine and dandy right? wrong...mac is 8 years old and fully grown, whereas booger is 6 months old and still has quite a bit of growing to do.
- well booger is now over a year old and, while she really doesn't seem to be very big, weighs 12 pounds. macaroni hasn't gained an ounce.
December 17, 2005
we bought the movie American Splendor the other day, so i may make rob watch that
- we have still to this day never watched this movie. i don't think it's ever even been opened in all honesty.
January 01, 2006
so, as usual, i won't be taking part in the whole making resolutions ordeal. or, maybe i will....yeah...i hearby make the resolution to continue hating most of society, people in general, and the criteria by which we are made to live.
- sweet...i've managed to hold true to this resolution 110%. i rock!
January 10, 2006
oh yeah! i also bought a guitar and got it in over the weekend. i ended up going with this one...(link) it's pretty sweet, and my fingers totally hurt from playing so much.
- i haven't played that poor guitar in probably over six months...it's sitting right here lookin' real pretty tho!
anyway...just some updates on past updates. this was basically a sad excuse for a post when i had nothing better to post about. however, i enjoyed the look back, and i know most of you are too lazy to go through the archives, and i really can't blame you. so i have work in the morning, and racquetball in the afternoon which i will not be able to participate in, but i still gotta show up. so with that i bid you a good nite.
-e
p.s. - to one whom i know doesn't read this, but might per-chance. happy f'in birthday doucebag. i'm sure i mean that with love.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
and now for some clarification...
i feel the need to clarify some seemingly misconstrued information from previous posts that have been brought into question recently.
i am not mad at anyone. there are some people in my life right now that i have been a shit to, but there is more than one, and singling someone out does not change that fact. i'm sorry if you guys feel bad for that one person, but just realize that you don't know all the facts, and that i have my reasons for being this way.
i hope this clears shit up so that no further interrogations are necessary, not that they weren't funny or sweet or anything. :)
later!
-e
i am not mad at anyone. there are some people in my life right now that i have been a shit to, but there is more than one, and singling someone out does not change that fact. i'm sorry if you guys feel bad for that one person, but just realize that you don't know all the facts, and that i have my reasons for being this way.
i hope this clears shit up so that no further interrogations are necessary, not that they weren't funny or sweet or anything. :)
later!
-e
happy birthday mommy...
today my mom turns 66 years old. no, i'm not kidding. rob and i are going to g-ville today to spend time with her, and take her out for lunch and what not.
my sister, who turned 28 yesterday, and her boyfriend will be joining us as well, so it should at least prove to be an interesting affair.
my sister and i have never really been close. we look a bit alike in some ways, we sound a hell of a lot alike, and we both have boyfriends over 30, however that's pretty much where our simularities end. she's older, i'm younger; she's short, i'm tall; she parties, i'm anti-social; she has tons of friends, and again i'm anti-social; she has a bachelor's in biology, i'm the artsy fartsy one doing photography; she's book smart but has to work really hard at things like school, i'm life smart and don't have to work hard for very much at all; she's my dad's child, whereas i am my mom's.
our differences are pretty much limitless. if she's one thing, you can bet that i am the exact polar opposite. it's been that way since we were kids. unfortunately, it caused problems in school, because she had all of my teachers four years before me, so by the time i reached them they had these preconceived notions of who i was supposed to be, and boy did they get a suprise when they realized how wrong they were.
anyway...this post was mainly just to say happy birthday to my mommy and to my sister!
later!
-e
my sister, who turned 28 yesterday, and her boyfriend will be joining us as well, so it should at least prove to be an interesting affair.
my sister and i have never really been close. we look a bit alike in some ways, we sound a hell of a lot alike, and we both have boyfriends over 30, however that's pretty much where our simularities end. she's older, i'm younger; she's short, i'm tall; she parties, i'm anti-social; she has tons of friends, and again i'm anti-social; she has a bachelor's in biology, i'm the artsy fartsy one doing photography; she's book smart but has to work really hard at things like school, i'm life smart and don't have to work hard for very much at all; she's my dad's child, whereas i am my mom's.
our differences are pretty much limitless. if she's one thing, you can bet that i am the exact polar opposite. it's been that way since we were kids. unfortunately, it caused problems in school, because she had all of my teachers four years before me, so by the time i reached them they had these preconceived notions of who i was supposed to be, and boy did they get a suprise when they realized how wrong they were.
anyway...this post was mainly just to say happy birthday to my mommy and to my sister!
later!
-e
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