i kick ass...

and by "i", i mean me, and by "me" i mean myself and my photography. it's such a great feeling to make money off your passion. yeppers...i kick ass.
also, i bought new shoes today. tan airwalks that are awesome.
i also bought the movie mission:impossible...yes, the first one, because it's the only one worth watching and rob hadn't seen it. so we went to the place for trading movies house (otherwise known as movie trading company) and they were having a kick ass sale of buy 3 used and get one free on movies, games, and music - you could mix and match. but they only had m:i new, so rob bought three used games and got a used movie for free. we rock!
let's see...oh, i also got all of my color film from the big bend trip processed and printed. i got a lot of awesome shots! while we were out there i discovered that the lens rob purchased for my camera has a micro lens setting on it (thus letting me get extremely close to my subject and be able to focus and capture great detail). those were some of the best shots! wow...i was very impressed to say the least. sometimes i even surprise myself.
well, we played tennis today and we're both pretty beat, so i think we may play video games for a bit and then head to bed. smell ya later gater.

a, not so grand, adventure...

spring semester is over, and maymester is about to end as well. i've managed to raise my gpa so that i am no longer on academic probation, and have obtained enough credit hours to be classified as a sophmore. woohoo! yeah. anyway.
this maymester i took a photography portfolio class that my photo prof. was teaching. basically the class was a one week trip to big bend national park. if you've never been...i don't recommend it. i had been out to el paso, tx before, but it's been awhile...and they said mountains and shit...so i figured how bad could it be? here's the run down:
day one - twelve hour drive in a van with a dog on my lap for 9 of those hours.
day two - we went hiking in the morning which wasn't bad, drove for an hour and a half to have lunch, drove another hour to our second destination in the middle of the afternoon...ya know, when it's hot, and then hiked around 4 miles round trip...oh, and i fell-both of my knees landed directly on sharp pointy rocks. oh, and i saw a rattlesnake.
day three - i got sick. nausea, puking, fever, soreness...about twelve episodes of law and order because we only got four channels on the t.v. in the motel.
day four - i don't remember much of that day. probably went hiking...i dunno.
day five - morning hike wasn't bad. afternoon hike was down by the river, so the humidity increased, which meant that the temperature increased...great fun. not.
day six - the best of all the days because common sense finally sunk in, and people realized that afternoon hikes in the heat of the day were stupid! so we all pretty much took it easy.
day seven - twelve hour drive back home...9 hours of a dog in my lap. got back, then had to drive to my mom's house to pick up the kitties and drive back...that was a 2 hour round trip with dinner thrown in there in the middle.

so yeah. now i have summer courses to worry about and, of course, work. i'm exhausted however, so that's another story for another time. adios.

an epiphany...

ok, so it's been awhile. i know that pretty much no one reads this, and so i don't really feel too terrible about not updating it more. in fact, the question, "then why update it at all?" poses itself, and then answer is really quite simple, and is as follows: i don't know really; probably because i can.
there's been a lot going on in my life lately, and i feel the need to vent somewhere. rob's loving ear can only take so much, really. so here i am, and here i vent.

i came to the realization, lately, that i do not know how to be a girl/woman...er, female we'll say. yes, i have tits, and yes, i am completely anatomically a female in all other physical ways...however, i do not feel, nor think, nor really act like one. this is not to say that i feel, act, or think like a male, however. i came to the decision that i don't like gender identification. i don't want to be classified because of my body or my chromosones.
this goes into a deep thought process i was having a few nights back when i realized that i just don't fit in with my friends, family, or people in general. don't get me wrong...i love my friends, and my family (tho i could do without everyone else really), however, there are things that just make me stand out from them. it made me realize that i don't like standing out...i don't like being taller than people, i don't like having a bigger chest than most chicks, i don't like being younger than my boyfriend, i don't like my parents being older than most...and then the deeper stuff, i don't like my beliefs and opinions because they set me apart from others, i don't like dressing uncomfortably, however when i dress for comfort i stand out, i don't like being smart because it makes me stand out from others, etc.
it's all fairly ridiculous stuff really. i think i just have to face the fact that everyone goes through this in their lives. no one really knows who they are, and no one really likes the person they are/have been/will be at some point.i don't necessarily like the person i am right now, tho i don't really know who that is...and i definitely do not like the person that i have been in the past. so, since i can't change the past, and present is quickly becoming part of that past, the only thing i can control is the future. i have the right to make my own decisions, and the ability to change my life if i don't like where it is, or where it's going. so here i go world...here i go.