we think it's something i ate...

i am so sick of not being able to depend on people. i'm sick of people who call others friends, and then turn their backs on them.
rob found out today that someone he called a friend for the past six or seven years was in town recently and actually called one of their mutual friends to go hang out, but yet, we never heard from him. normally, this wouldn't be a big deal, but this particular person works for the same company john works for, and look at what wonders that company and the fucktard behind it did for our friendship! it makes me livid to think of what tools these people have become to the money and the man they work for. in a matter of a year this asshole came into peoples lives and tore apart friendships, relationships - personal and professional, all that had lasted years before he showed up. then again, on the other side of the fence, one could argue that these people were never really committed to those relationships if they were so willing to let one man with a lot of money, rip them apart.
then there's the whole tiffani ordeal. someone whom i trusted, respected and cared for. someone who i thought was above playing high school games. i wrote her an email the other day explaining my position on the whole thing. needless to say, i haven't heard back from her.
i look back at my life and it's filled with these people. it makes me really appreciate the one person in my life that i know i can count on. luckily, he feels the same about me. he told me earlier that if these people were dumb enough to let someone else ruin their relationships, then fuck'em, because we don't need people like that in our lives. and he's right. we don't.
so from now on, if you're a part of my life it's because you want to be. it's because you're not a shallow, hypocritical pussy who turns their backs on someone for money. it's because you're willing to stick up for the ones you care about, and are willing to let me do the same.
with that said, i'm going back to bed. i spent last night power-vomitting, and haven't felt real great today either. yay for getting sick right before going out of town! hopefully, it'll pass by tomorrow. we think it was the chipotle we had for dinner last nite. sometimes it's the yummy things that get ya...